Thursday, February 26

When the excreta hits the oscillating unit......

LOL!! Things have been a little.... um.... unsettled around here recently. I can't really say why just yet ( no, I'm not pregnant though that WOULD be unsettling!!) suffice it to say that unless something comes along pretty soon, hard times are on their way. Anyhoo.... that's the reason behind my sporadic posting lately... my head is on other things!!!

I was talking to hubby this morning.... worried that I am failing the kids, that they aren't learning anything, that they can't follow a simple direction, have memories of sieves and so on and so on... I get like this, panicking..... He reassured me that they are doing fine. He came up with a plan and he told Jessie what he wanted her to do this morning. I expressed concern that all Jessie is knowledgeable about is DRAGONS!!!!! DRAGONS?!?!?! they aren't even REAL!!! HOW will this help her in life!?!?!!! Then.... I found this and I began to relax. Theresa's right!! It's not the "what" of the learning that counts.... it's the learning. It's the process. It's all a process.

There are so many days these days when I just want to pull the covers over my head and never, ever get up again. Sometimes being a parent seems so overwhelmingly hard to me and being the fighter that I am... well.... I just want to quit!!! Rising every morning to the sounds of kids quarreling is not the best note to start the day on... and it seems to happen every day. Even right this moment I can't hear myself THINK because Jack is HAMMERING on the piano.... AARRGGGHHH!!!!!
If I go to bed early I'm annoyed and frustrated as I don't get enough time to myself, if I go to bed late then I'm cranky, annoyed and frustrated because I am TIRED!!! People say I should get up before the kids... um... they get up at 6:30. Just how flaming early should I get up!?!?? LOL!!

Anyway, I'm totally rambling here, completely distracted and unable to focus... Jack is making me INSANE!!! Jessie IS actually doing some school work and the dogs have FINALLY quieted down and are now sleeping!!!

Sorry about this nutso post!! I'll give it a better try a bit later on! ; D

Enjoy your day!! :D

7 comments:

Risa said...

Sorry your day is off to a rough start--and yes, dear, it's the process not the product that counts. Same thing with parenting, IMHO. :-)

Give me a call anytime you wanna chat (vent? whine? drink hot chocolates spikes with butterscotch schnapps simultaneously?). Sending you positive vibes!

Alicia said...

Sorry things are rough. I hope everything turns itself around ASAP! Thinking of you.

Missusgarry said...

Just to say I think you are doing an amazing, wonderful job and to send you some inspiring words. I sympathise and undersatnd how difficult things are at the moment - hang in there my girl! I echo what Risa said - my ear is always available even though only at the end of the phone! Keep strong (as I know you ARE!) and remember those words "..this too will pass..." I love you... your Ma xxxxxx

Niecey said...

Did I write this? I have no recollection of doing so, but on reading it, it looks like it could have been words right out of my mouth. I'm right there with you.

By the way, I recently discovered brainpop.com and I'm loving it. I do a couple movies of it with the kids, and it inspires us all, and gives us ideas for some sort of unschooling type activities. Even if we do nothing else all day, I at least feel like I've done something with them and I don't feel so guilty all day. I just got through the trial and we're thinking we're going to pay for a subscription. The kids really loved it.

I'm sure when the weather improves we'll all be able to get out more and we'll be all the better for it.

Gorgeous. said...

Thanks so much everyone....Risa... the booze sounds like a good idea...I'll make a note of that!

Ma, thanks for your support as always. I love you too!

Nicey.. good to know I'm not alone here..!!! We love Brainpop too...! Isn't it wonderful!!?! :D

Theresa said...

So glad the dragon stuff helped you to feel better. Hang in there. It really does get better.

Stacy said...

Sorry to hear you are going through a rough spot. Like Niecey wrote, I think I could have written that myself. Some days are just awful, but having friends who understand makes all the difference. Please feel free to call me anytime; I wish I was close enough to you that I could come help you out when you need it. I hope you have somebody who can. Sending you strength, patience, and hugs...